Im going thru alot of stuff currently where is qod @?

I read the Bible && pray as much as iCan iJuss DONT feel qod helpinqq meeh its likee he's helpinqq everyone else besides me :( the boy iWas madly iNN love w. Broke up w. Meeh iMiss him badly && iim feelinqq really Down lately because iReally need qod to come iNN mah life && brinq bacc what I've lost IM tryna be patient but it seems like this storm is constantly lastinqq likee what's the point of tryna stay on this earth if IM still hurtinqq so much????